Struggling

I feel like I am falling, drifting into a seemingly endless void.  Like my motivation and desire usually does, it comes in spurts, moments in time that I never want to end.  The creativity and momentum that I had has seemed to drain out of my fingertips with no recharge station to be found.  I need an adventure.  A mental break, something to stimulate my mind, prick at my neurons and convince me that I am, in fact, still alive.  I had a great weekend, and I don't know what is causing this feeling of helplessness, and I suppose I should be used to these emotional surges by now do to my constant shift in birth control due to problems with the previous.  I can't tell what normal feels like any more, not that I would ever be happy with normal.  I just wish I had one day where I could feel content, satisfied, not feeling like something was missing.

My love life is perfect.  My cats add great joy and frustration, but always bring something new to my day.  The food recently has been equisite.  But I still feel like there is something missing.  Maybe it's Star Island, maybe it's nature, but whatever it is, I need to find it.  If I lose my way with writing again, I worry I'll never be able to get it back.

The shallow dream

Gets me every time

The beauty of a dream

Bodes the heart and begs the crime

And here it is

Lost and alone

The shallow dream

Empty promises

and I let it lie

Dream: Inside a Museum

We were looking at all these strange, and somewhat beautiful, objects in this three story mall/museum.  Everything was for sale, but most things people just looked at as a weird display.

One of which was a station wagon, made by Saturn (my car), which this RV type feel to it.  The seats in front were relatively normal, but the trunk had been transformed into this make-shift kitchen area.  "Everything you need to go camping," someone said.

We continued rummaging around and I found this beautiful, hand-bound journal.  I've always wanted one with pressed pages, where you can still see the splinters of the unrefined wood.  There is something so natural about it.

Interpertation:
To see a kitchen in your dream, signifies your need for warmth and spiritual nourishment.
To see or drive a station wagon in your dream, refers to your family and issues surrounding your family.
To see books in your dream, indicates calmness. You are moving toward your goals at a slow and steady pace.  Books also symbolize knowledge, intellect, information and wisdom. Consider the type of book for additional clues. The dream may represent your calling into a specific field of work or an area that you need to devote more study to.